Sick empty feeling with any other guy, bf went MIA..how do I deal without him? </3?

Its been four months now. I hate it because my friends admire me and think I;m great at getting guys. And I seem like I'm having fun from the outside, but I go home and I just feel so empty. I love my ex boyfriend still and I pray every day for God to bring him back, but I just feel I need a way to distract myself from the pain.. and I do it with fake happiness. The worst kind, but better than giving in to sadness and chasing my friends away. I found one guy recently that was actually ok, but he went MIA like he'd been abducted by aliens..just like the man I love. I'm a nice looking girl that keeps myself up, I'm funloving and a christian who's very loving and caring..but this always happens..like I'm cursed. Please offer kind advice only.. I don't need to feel worse right now, I already feel very sad, empty, alone, and hopeless. Please give constructive feedback..I really need it. I cant talk to my friends about it because they wouldnt believe me