What turned me biual? Was I forced?

I joined the wrestling team and everyday we were forced to take showers together after practice I wrestled guys slaming them then thinking omg did I hurt him then I started caring about boys more then I saw a guy on the wrestling team at a party he reminded me of a boy I had a thing with I instantly fell he remined me of an emo dude we had a thing together. Boys always seemed to flirt say do things with me!